It’s been a deep journey…
A couple of years ago Graeme and I were looking to expand our business and offer you even better services than we already were. But we were feeling stuck in it and didn’t know why. Something had to change.
So we did what we invite our clients to do- to look within.
The other thing that was going on, was that we were also in a stuck place in our relationship. Yes, even the experts can end up in places that aren’t working! We’d tried everything we knew but nothing was shifting. It just felt like we were going over the same old ground. (Graeme has his own part in this story and he will tell it at a later time.)
I am choosing to share some personal information about myself with you. It is to highlight the powerful place I have now stepped into, and how it is informing the work I want to offer.
One day, Graeme happened to say that to him, I felt like I was ‘frozen’.
I felt into myself and thought ‘He’s right!’
And I felt excited, because this was a new place in me to explore, and I knew it would lead to new answers.
It did. To cut a long story short, I explored my frozenness. I discovered that I was, totally unbeknownst to me, holding the trauma of childhood sexual abuse inside my frozenness. Wow, was that ever a shock! But it was also a relief in many ways because it made the stuck and limited places in me finally make sense.
All of a sudden I knew why they had been there, why I had behaved the way I had. In both my intimate relationships and in my life.
It also made sense of why I had ended up exploring sex, love and intimate relationships as my life’s work. It was my soul’s way of trying to heal the layers of my past. I say layers, because my abuser was my normally gentle father, over the first 12 years of my life (he is no longer alive). This complex relationship required layers of healing, of what love really is, and what power and having a sense of self is for me. As well as healing of the actual sexual trauma. This is where I have been over the past couple of years. Getting clear of my past and finding the hidden gifts in myself as a result.
I have found a place of rock solid self belief and trust in myself, that is based in a reclaiming of my heart and of myself in a way I have never known before. I no longer have to question and doubt myself as I have in the past. I have reclaimed my innocence, my truth and beauty. I no longer have to struggle under a heavy mantle of shame, one that existed no matter how many breakthroughs I had. I now love myself unconditionally and treat myself with compassion rather than punishment.
If you are a woman and you are relating to my words here, if you doubt yourself, put others first, don’t believe you are truly lovable or beautiful, OR if you want to love yourself more, stand up and shine or want to get more out of life, including your sex life (no matter what your age, I am a post menopausal woman of 62), you will be excited about my latest offerings coming below!
Please let me know if you have any comments or questions, as I would love to hear from you!
